I'm not a fan of big waves. Don't get me wrong I love the beach. The fresh air, sand under your toes, salt water on your skin.... but I'm more of a bay beach girl. Big waves scare me - this combination of awe and utter terror. Waves have a magnetic pull so strong that it takes your feet out from underneath you. They can lift you so high. They can also crash you back down, engulf you so you are struggling to find the surface again.

These aspects of the ocean remind me a lot of my fertility journey to date.

It started off as a fun day at the beach bobbing in the waves. Then the tide changed.