Monday Musing

 
Conquer beat TTC IVF Infertility Fertility
 

If conquering yourself is the mark of being a mighty warrior this week I think I must be the mightiest warrior of all! Trying to conceive (TTC) can throw at you moments/days/weeks that really test you.

Test your strength.

Test your sanity.

Test your sense of self.

It can take you to the brink, leave you unsure of whether to just jump over the edge or claw your way back.

I've certainly had my moments where I have nearly let self- doubt win.

Where I have felt it was all too much.

Where I have ignored what I am feeling or what I want until it builds up to boiling point and can no longer be ignored.

Where I've endured the hormone induced fogs where it seems impossible to manage your emotions.

So some weeks - like this one - becomes about conquering myself. Finding a way back to feeling like "myself" again. For me this involves:

  • Recalibrating -  Taking the time to get real with what is important at this time, and what is going on right now that has me feeling this way.
  • Accepting myself - I don't have to be perfect
  • Asking for what I need - I don't have to do this alone
  • Finding a way to laugh at myself - not taking it all so seriously

Sometimes this is easier to do than others....but always its worth it when I persist.

I learn more about myself, I gain more strength. I move from feeling annoyed with myself to feeling a sense of accomplishment!

What are some of the tools you use to conquer yourself in moments where you fall into self-doubt?