Monday Musing

 
Find you in the present TT, infertility, fertility
 
Wherever you go, go with all your heart - Confucius

This quote struck a chord with me this week ....one of my own personal areas of focus and awareness at the moment is about being present in the moment. Enjoying it. Savouring it. Honouring it.

I realised recently with all we have been facing with TTC my mind is always in the future. I found myself describing it to someone as my mind is always on where it needs to be - this item, this activity, this time in the future.

As I said it out loud it twigged - no, where my mind really needed to be was on the NOW.

I realised that how I've been approaching TTC has robbed me of that - I've always been quite fast paced, and forward thinking - but I'd also been able to balance that with a bit of living in the moment. The last three years I've not really done that at all. 

I think its contributed to feeling so disconnected and lost at times during our fertility challenges - my mind is always on something that doesn't eventuate exactly as I'd seen it in my minds eye.

I had it backwards. So now I am focusing on what's in front of me. Pouring my heart into that....and from there wherever it takes me I go with heart so it always has more meaning!!

Where can your heart lead you this week?